Hands to the plow

6/30

Good Shepherd Faith ready for worship

On the Sunday on which the 50th anniversary of the Stonewall Uprising was celebrated in our city, I came to Good Shepherd Faith to lead the service. Here were my refections:

There’s been a lot on my mind this week. I’m just back from two weeks in Central America, Honduras, Guatemala and El Salvador. And when Jesus says “Foxes have holes, and birds of he air have nests; but the Son of Man has nowhere to lay his head.” I could do a whole sermon just on that. But I chose this passage because last Saturday I was in a music festival  on Governors island and after my own set, I sat in with an Appalachian band and their last number was “Gospel Plow”....

Ready to preach...rainbow stole....


Mary wore three links of chain

Every link was Jesus' name

Keep your hand on that plow, hold on

Oh Lord, oh Lord, keep your hand on that plow, hold on

Mary, Mark, Luke and John

All these prophets are dead and gone

Keep your hand on that plow, hold on

Oh Lord, oh Lord, keep your hand on that plow, hold on

Well, I've never been to Heaven

But I've been told streets up there

Are lined with gold

Keep your hand on that plow, hold on

Oh Lord, oh Lord, keep your hand on that plow, hold on

Oh Lord, oh Lord, keep your hand on that plow, hold on

Oh Lord, oh Lord, keep your hand on that plow, hold on

So I had to preach on this...

It’s about Jesus saying once you start out, there just ain’t no turning back...can’t be going back to take care of business, can’t be making farewells, just hand to the plow, hold on.....

I was in the Village twice this week for music. And every time I went, the energy was building for today’s global celebration of 50 years of Stonewall, a rebellion that reverberated across the globe.

In the religious world, the Stonewall story is a Presbyterian story. It started in 1978 when the General Assembly in San Diego voted to prohibit ordination of “avowed and practicing homosexuals”....no one then knew it would take until 2011 to finally open the doors to acknowledge ministries that god had already called into being. That’s 33 years... the whole life of Jesus ....that’s a lot of years with hands on the plow...

And I’m proud that the church Stonewall moment took place at my old church West Park in September 1978 when the Session at West Park approved the historic More Light statement. It’s valuable to hear it again...

In harmony with the General Assembly of the United Presbyterian Church, West-Park Church affirms the civil rights of all person. Further, in keeping with our General Assembly’s guidelines, this community of faith welcomes as members homosexual persons who both seek and have found Christ’s love.

This local congregation will not select one particular element from a person’s total humanity as a basis for denying full participation and service in the body of Christ. Nor will this community of faith condemn or judge our brothers and sisters who declare their faith in Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior and promise discipleship to Him. We affirm that in meeting each other in Christian love. God’s spirit frees us all to live and grow, liberated from the oppression invoked upon us by ourselves and others.

Within this context, West-Park Presbyterian Church reaches out to Christian and non-Christian homosexual persons with a ministry of support, caring and openness—a ministry in which the creative, liberating power of the Holy Spirit rules and guides." [5]

The name More Light came from the farewell words of Pastor John Robinson to the pilgrims as they set sail on the Mayflower on 1646:

...if God should reveal anything to us by any other instrument of his, to be as ready to receive it, as ever we were to receive any truth by his Ministry. For he was very confident the Lord had more truth and light yet to break forth out of his holy Word.

In the 1850s George Rawson would write a hymn with these words:

...We limit not the truth of God to our poor reach of mind --

By notions of our day and sect -- crude, partial, and confined

That universe, how much unknown! that ocean unexplored

For God hath yet more light and truth to break forth from the Word.

Eternal God, Incarnate Word, Spirit of flame and dove,

enlarge, expand all living souls to comprehend your love;

and help us all to seek your will with wiser powers conferred

O God, grant yet more light and truth to break forth from the Word.

..... so what began with the session of West Park birthed the More Light movement that jumped across denominational lines and inspired movements in all mainline denominations.

33 years. And still, villages turn him away....even this summer our Methodist brothers and sisters failed again to step into freedom and even took a step back. Countries in Africa, inspired by North American missionaries, pass draconian laws against lgbtq people. In Central America among those seeking their way  north are lgbtq people who suffer the worst of repressive measures putting their very lives in danger as we raise walls higher both literally and figuratively to keep them out.

And today, our country seems to be moving backward even as acceptance become more and more normative, banning trans people from the military, not allowing our embassies to fly rainbow flags this week and on and on...

Hands to the plow my brothers and sisters..

and of course it wasn’t just west park, it was pastors and members in small churches just like this one all across the country who kept tower hands to the plow and held on even through the darkest hours.

Things do and can change. Today in the Village the Evelyn Davidson memorial water table will again be in operation..who remembers its origins? In the gospel of Matthew (10:42) Jesus says “and whoever gives even a cup of cold water to one of these little ones in the name of a disciple — truly I tell you, none of these will lose their reward. That was the verse that inspired an act of witness by Evelyn Davidson, wife of my preceding pastor, Bob Davidson. Around 1982, she felt that the gay community had been so rejected and hurt by the church that there had to be a counter witness.  So she came up with setting up a water table and distributing cool cups of water --in Jesus name—every Pride march day. It would be in  front of First Presbyterian at 5th and 12th along the parade route. At first, First Pres was resistant. Then Presbytery Executive George Todd had an office there and rigged up a hose on the top floor in his bathroom and dragged it all the way down and through the church the outside to fill up the cups. By the next year, the church became an active participant. And today the table is a fully owned project of First Presbyterian.

People are marching. There is much to celebrate. As of 2014 the PCUSA recognizes same gender marriages. But still so far to go. Keep your hand on the plow....hold on!

In our conversation, people were interested in the parts of the Gospel we hadn't spoken of. Like the not burying the father, letting the dead bury the dead. Which could take years.  Despite its hyperbolic language, the sense is clear, we can't be stuck on what is dead. We need to move forward.  And don't look back.

Outside the sun was shining. A good day to celebrate....

Luke 9: 51-62

51 When the days drew near for him to be taken up, he set his face to go to Jerusalem. 52 And he sent messengers ahead of him. On their way they entered a village of the Samaritans to make ready for him; 53 but they did not receive him, because his face was set toward Jerusalem. 54 When his disciples James and John saw it, they said, “Lord, do you want us to command fire to come down from heaven and consume them?”[a] 55 But he turned and rebuked them. 56 Then[b] they went on to another village.Would-Be Followers of Jesus

57 As they were going along the road, someone said to him, “I will follow you wherever you go.” 58 And Jesus said to him, “Foxes have holes, and birds of the air have nests; but the Son of Man has nowhere to lay his head.” 59 To another he said, “Follow me.” But he said, “Lord, first let me go and bury my father.” 60 But Jesus[c] said to him, “Let the dead bury their own dead; but as for you, go and proclaim the kingdom of God.” 61 Another said, “I will follow you, Lord; but let me first say farewell to those at my home.” 62 Jesus said to him, “No one who puts a hand to the plow and looks back is fit for the kingdom of God.”

PRIDE 2016

6/26

Celebrating PRIDE 2016

Today we are gathered on PRIDE SUNDAY. This year more than ever…it I san important day to celebrate as celebration becomes an act of resistance against the forces of hate, fear and violence.

Last night, I went to a concert and celebration event at the Brooklyn Commons Café…a gathering of the young queer community…white, black ,latino/a and Palestinian…beyond categories…as our epistle lesson said last week, there is”Neither Jew nor Greek, male nor female..” I’ll never hear those words the same way again. There were poets, singers, performance artists, telling their stories…filled with anger, rage,resolution….and  fierce love..and finally my friend Stephanie Ryan Johnstone (https://lovesongsfortherestofus.com/)…and the  choir…the second song was  by our friend Osagyefo Sekou (https://mic.com/articles/135635/rev-sekou-the-holy-ghost-s-new-album-the-revolution-has-come-is-true-healing-music#.EqFoUbueB)…about violence done to a trans woman of color...Ryan is bringing back an old tradition…that of churches, unions, communities…singing together…in harmony …and unity.

(I’m thinking a concert with Brother Sekou and his Holy Ghost Band, and Ryan  and their choir..that’s what we should be doing in our sanctuary..) The Commons became that night  church…safe space for being together, singing together, and shouting at God…the same one we claim to represent…

Rick Ufford-Chase has written in his  new book: Faithful Resistance: Gospel visions for the church in a time of empire…(http://west-parkpress.blogspot.com/2016/06/faithful-resistance-gospel-visions-for.html)

“As for the kind of community I want to be part of, I am interested in creating a community where those who have been rejected in every other space can come and feel safe…”  ad to that I say amen..

In Portland, I was inspired by watching on C-Span the resistance video feed of  the Democrat sit in…led old saint John Lewis…WOW…Hillary should have dropped by…I mean Elizabeth Warren brought donuts..BUT…then my Plaestinian friend 

Linda Sarsour, and another  lesbian friend reminded me  that …most massacres in this country have been committed by people NOT on the list…Orlando was NOT about terrorists…(but Oklahoma City was, did we call Timothy Mc Veigh a radical Christian terrorist?) .stop the gaming, just ban the damn assault weapons already…

In our gospel, Luke says: "No one who puts a hand to the plow and looks back is fit for the kingdom of God."

What does that mean to you?  Once we get started down the Jesus path, the way, there can be no turning back. ( The Wile E. Coyote moment, someone says…like Paul walking on the water to Jesus until he realizes what he’s doing..and then starts to sink…all too often we take ten leap of faith and then stop and crash before we reach the other side…Lot’s wife tuyrns back, becomes a pillar of salt…like Bib Dylan said, Press on…)

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So a few words about the Presbyterian 222^nd General Assembly:

The action that started with our Session and our friends across town at Jan Hus, calling for an apology to the lgbtq community for years of exclusion, of gGod-given ministries denied, Apology?  well, not quite…we couldn’t quite get there…it still seems that ”Sorry is the hardest word..”

And related to migration and the statement of Sanctuary principles our international work group, facilitated by Russ, ha sbeen working on? Yes…unanimously…

An effort to join the Methodists in leaving the Religious Coalition for Reproductive Choice was turned back. (Although we white pro-choice people wtil have to deal with the legacy of Margaret Sanger’s racist eugenics philosophy that informed her work on contraception..)

The Belhar Confession from apartheid era South Africa has now become an official creed of the Presbyterian Church. (https://www.pcusa.org/site_media/media/uploads/theologyandworship/pdfs/belhar.pdf)

We have written a new, more pointed statement on Israel-Palestine (but voted no no on a call to boycott of Hewlitt-Packard..)..and we continue to support two states still…

Re. fossil fuel? Shall we divest? Well, no not yet…but we will double down on engagement, yes.

We made a radical new declaration on communion, that  will no longer be restricted to those who are baptized..(simply all who are faithful…)

We passed a statement of concern for the lives of Black males (but amended it to read black people..)

There is HOPE. We are finding our way into a new day..this year the rejectionist right wing didn't even have a booth…now that the cultural wars are being settled, we have BIGGER questions to face, of race and class, big vs. small, privilege and power…

For the first time we elected two co-moderators, both  women, one black, and  one white

We have elected our first African-American  stated clerk, our highest office…a nd J.Herbert Nelson comes as a prophet, not a lawyer..

Yes….

HOPE

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It was great to have our music man Jeremy Mage

Jeremy sings his song

back again from Switzerland. A new father! Jeremy played one of his new songs…and helped us rock some old ones….

Welcome back Jeremy!

Don’t look back? Well, sometimes there’s value on knowing where you came from. And so I shared stoles from the shower of stoles that for years were not by volunteers from around the country to be worn at GA’s as a sign of protest.

From the "Shower of Stoles" project

In a movement that began here at West-Park in 1978 with the More Light Statement.  The religious Stonewall, as it were…1

I lift up the t-shirt from the Evelyn Davidson Memorial Water Table,

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named for the wife of our former pastor who called for a direct  and concrete witness to the lgbtq community that not all churches rejected our bothers and sisters by passing out “a cup of cool water in Jesus’ name”…

And we end our service by singing together, We are a fiercely loving people, and we are singing  for our lives…

[1] In harmony with the General Assembly of the United Presbyterian Church, West-Park Church affirms the civil rights of all person. Further, in keeping with our General Assembly’s guidelines, this community of faith welcomes as members homosexual persons who both seek and have found Christ’s love.

This local congregation will not select one particular element from a person’s total humanity as a basis for denying full participation and service in the body of Christ. Nor will this community of faith condemn or judge our brothers and sisters who declare their faith in Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior and promise discipleship to Him. We affirm that in meeting each other in Christian love. God’s spirit frees us all to live and grow, liberated from the oppression invoked upon us by ourselves and others.

Within this context, West-Park Presbyterian Church reaches out to Christian and non-Christian homosexual persons with a ministry of support, caring and openness—a ministry in which the creative, liberating power of the Holy Spirit rules and guides.

¹Now when the LORD was about to take Elijah up to heaven by a whirlwind, Elijah and Elisha were on their way from Gilgal. ²Elijah said to Elisha, "Stay here; for the LORD has sent me as far as Bethel." But Elisha said, "As the LORD lives, and as you yourself live, I will not leave you." So they went down to Bethel.

⁶Then Elijah said to him, "Stay here; for the LORD has sent me to the Jordan." But he said, "As the LORD lives, and as you yourself live, I will not leave you." So the two of them went on. ⁷Fifty men of the company of prophets also went, and stood at some distance from them, as they both were standing by the Jordan. ⁸Then Elijah took his mantle and rolled it up, and struck the water; the water was parted to the one side and to the other, until the two of them crossed on dry ground.

⁹When they had crossed, Elijah said to Elisha, "Tell me what I may do for you, before I am taken from you." Elisha said, "Please let me inherit a double share of your spirit." ¹⁰He responded, "You have asked a hard thing; yet, if you see me as I am being taken from you, it will be granted you; if not, it will not." ¹¹As they continued walking and talking, a chariot of fire and horses of fire separated the two of them, and Elijah ascended in a whirlwind into heaven. ¹²Elisha kept watching and crying out, "Father, father! The chariots of Israel and its horsemen!" But when he could no longer see him, he grasped his own clothes and tore them in two pieces.

¹³He picked up the mantle of Elijah that had fallen from him, and went back and stood on the bank of the Jordan. ¹⁴He took the mantle of Elijah that had fallen from him, and struck the water, saying, "Where is the LORD, the God of Elijah?" When he had struck the water, the water was parted to the one side and to the other, and Elisha went over.

Psalm 77:1-2, 11-20

¹I cry aloud to God,

aloud to God, that he may hear me.

²In the day of my trouble I seek the Lord;

in the night my hand is stretched out without wearying;

my soul refuses to be comforted.

¹¹I will call to mind the deeds of the LORD;

I will remember your wonders of old.

¹²I will meditate on all your work,

and muse on your mighty deeds.

¹³Your way, O God, is holy.

What god is so great as our God?

¹⁴You are the God who works wonders;

you have displayed your might among the peoples.

¹⁵With your strong arm you redeemed your people,

the descendants of Jacob and Joseph. Selah

¹⁶When the waters saw you, O God,

when the waters saw you, they were afraid;

the very deep trembled.

¹⁷The clouds poured out water;

the skies thundered;

your arrows flashed on every side.

¹⁸The crash of your thunder was in the whirlwind;

your lightnings lit up the world;

the earth trembled and shook.

¹⁹Your way was through the sea,

your path, through the mighty waters;

yet your footprints were unseen.

²⁰You led your people like a flock

by the hand of Moses and Aaron.

Second Reading Galatians 5:1, 13-25

¹For freedom Christ has set us free. Stand firm, therefore, and do not submit again to a yoke of slavery.

¹³For you were called to freedom, brothers and sisters; only do not use your freedom as an opportunity for self-indulgence, but through love become slaves to one another. ¹⁴For the whole law is summed up in a single commandment, "You shall love your neighbor as yourself." ¹⁵If, however, you bite and devour one another, take care that you are not consumed by one another.

¹⁶Live by the Spirit, I say, and do not gratify the desires of the flesh. ¹⁷For what the flesh desires is opposed to the Spirit, and what the Spirit desires is opposed to the flesh; for these are opposed to each other, to prevent you from doing what you want. ¹⁸But if you are led by the Spirit, you are not subject to the law. ¹⁹Now the works of the flesh are obvious: fornication, impurity, licentiousness, ²⁰idolatry, sorcery, enmities, strife, jealousy, anger, quarrels, dissensions, factions, ²¹envy, drunkenness, carousing, and things like these. I am warning you, as I warned you before: those who do such things will not inherit the kingdom of God.

²²By contrast, the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, generosity, faithfulness, ²³gentleness, and self-control. There is no law against such things. ²⁴And those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires. ²⁵If we live by the Spirit, let us also be guided by the Spirit.

Gospel Luke 9:51-62

⁵¹When the days drew near for him to be taken up, he set his face to go to Jerusalem. ⁵²And he sent messengers ahead of him. On their way they entered a village of the Samaritans to make ready for him; ⁵³but they did not receive him, because his face was set toward Jerusalem. ⁵⁴When his disciples James and John saw it, they said, "Lord, do you want us to command fire to come down from heaven and consume them?" ⁵⁵But he turned and rebuked them. ⁵⁶Then they went on to another village.

⁵⁷As they were going along the road, someone said to him, "I will follow you wherever you go." ⁵⁸And Jesus said to him, "Foxes have holes, and birds of the air have nests; but the Son of Man has nowhere to lay his head." ⁵⁹To another he said, "Follow me." But he said, "Lord, first let me go and bury my father." ⁶⁰But Jesus said to him, "Let the dead bury their own dead; but as for you, go and proclaim the kingdom of God." ⁶¹Another said, "I will follow you, Lord; but let me first say farewell to those at my home." ⁶²Jesus said to him, "No one who puts a hand to the plow and looks back is fit for the kingdom of God."

Rock stars and prophets

4/8

The following blog entry was written not about West-Park but about the conference at Stony Point bringing together the pioneers of the movement for lgbtq inclusion in the PCUSA. It's special focus is on the role of the Presbyterian Health Education and Welfare Association's role in  that journey. Pastor Brashear was a two term PHEWA President and continues to serve on the board. It's also important to note that the first More Light church was West-Park. Some have called its 1978 Moire Light statement the religious stonewall. It's a legacy to live up to. 

Rock Stars and Prophets

Rock Stars and Prophets: Generations of Justice and Love was the name of the gathering at Stony Point April 8-10. And that’s exactly who showed up. Under the auspices of That All May Freely Serve, it was a homecoming gathering and celebration for around 85 saints who had been involved in the decades long struggle for lgbtq inclusion the PCUSA.  And was also an opportunity to gather those  stories while we still can, to do  documentation and preservation of a history while it is still with us.

Jim and Janie Spahr remember

Looking around the room, I realized how important that was. While there was a contingent of the second and third wave of leadership, most of us were in our 60’s, 70’s, even 80’s.  Our stories need to be recorded now. When the leadership group from the 70’s got up to report, someone noted that there was only one male clergy in a group that had been devastated by the AIDS pandemic.  Looking around the room, I also noted the decades of stolen ministry, lost ministry. Well, not exactly, because many had been in constant faithful ministry only denied official denominational recognition by the church they loved leaving them in a state of ecclesiastical house arrest as internal exiles.

A life-size cardboard cut out of Howard Warren, God’s Glorious Gadfly,

Howard Warren presente

of beloved memory greeted us as we entered the meeting hall reminding us of his witness. Howard was a rock star and prophet both. He was family, one of us. And never hesitant to call the church to task. Including us when we would hesitate in our witness.

I recalled some special Howard moments. Like his long walk in the opening worship service of the 1990 Baltimore General Assembly when he walked the whole length of the arena floor to stand silently in front of outgoing moderator Price Gwynn with a sign that read Shame. While nervous security guards stirred, Moderator Gwynn proceeded as if Howard were not even there.

When I wrote about this event later, I referenced the retired jerseys of Baltimore basketball greats hanging from the rafters.  I wrote something like,

In an arena that once was home to basketball greats like Wes Unsled and Earl(the Pearl) Monroe, no one ever moved across that arena floor with the grace shown by Howard Warren in his long walk last night…

Later, Howard said to me, In my whole life, I’ve never had anything about me described as athletic. I kind of like that…

(Does anyone know who accompanied Howard on that walk?)

Or in 1993 at the Albuquerque Biennial. In response to the shameful disinviting of Janie Spahr to preach at the Center in Louisville, Howard in his wonderful way, rose with a motion to accuse then Executive Director James Brown of the sin of Sodom, meaning of course the failure to show hospitality. Of course, the Layman reported that PHEWA had accused brown of sodomy. Howard lived free of fear with righteous anger, humor gentle, ironic and fierce and love, big love.

Looking around the room, I see old friends like Janie Spahr, Lisa Larges, Chris Glaser. Others whose stories I am just learning as we weave our individual memories into one fabric.  I need to try and capture the ways PHEWA contributed to this journey.

How many knew that long-time PHEWA director Rodney Martin was a commissioner to that 1978 Assembly that made explicit the judging and exclusion of avowed and practicing homosexuals from ordained ministry even while making a hypocritical expression of welcome. And that Rod was the first commissioner to sign and file a dissent to that action.

Following that GA, Rod made PHEWA a safe place, a place of welcome, of home, for all, especially those who had been excluded. Not in pursuit of what the layman called the homosexual agenda, (I always loved that phrase) but because their ministries were our ministries. That’s all.  Chris Glaser and West Hollywood ‘s Lazarus project, Janie Spahr’s ministries lived under our tent at GA.

In that infamous 1993 Biennial, PHEWA passed a statement of inclusion which pcusa news director Jerry Van Marter’s headline had us joining the front lines of the ordination struggle. (If only…) [i] This would lead to PHEWA being made to pass through a GA gauntlet that included investigations and PHEWA Director being left naked of support and hung out to dry before GA. (Now PHEWA board member Doug Mitchell would help turn the GA committee from censure to additional financial support…) However, the aftershocks continued into recent times.

Again in 1993, the New Orleans Biennial made waves when John Park Lee Award winner Matt English, soon to die from AIDS, took the opportunity to deliver a jeremiad to the denomination.[ii] A COMANO statement ended by ironically comparing the welcoming response of a secular blues club, House of Blues, to that of the denomination.

When PHEWA narrowly escaped the death penalty at the 1995 GA, the Presbyterian Layman had this to say:

This article, on pg. 7 of The Layman, reminds me that PHEWA kept its denominational funding by less than 5 votes on the floor of the 1995 G.A., largely over PHEWA use of “responsible dissent,” advocating against G.A. policies on GLBTQ ordination.

Quoting:

PHEWA has been criticized for its activism, lack of accountability, and disagreement (what it calls “responsible dissent”) with denominational policy. In response to these criticisms, the 1995 General Assembly called on the GAC to review PHEWA’s activities since 1992, monitor PHEWA in light of its Memo of Understanding with the PCUSA, and report the findings to the 1996 GA. That GA adopted two resolutions. One instructed the moderator to appoint a committee to address concerns critics have had about PHEWA’s exclusive membership and to clarify definitions of terms like “responsible dissent.” A separate action dealt with PHEWA finances and accounting standards and called on NMD to review the Memo of Understanding to “consider revisions to address the concerns of inclusiveness and political advocacy. ...” Among PHEWA member organizations are Presbyterians Affirming Reproductive Options, Presbyterian Association of Specialized Pastoral Ministries, Presbyterian Child Advocacy Network, Presbyterians for Disabilities Concerns, and Presbyterian AIDS Network. “One of the things we have to celebrate with PHEWA is its ministry with people in the trenches,” NMD Committee Chairperson Sandra Hawley of Bloomington, Minn., said. Trust “Trust” was a word used frequently at the NMD Committee meeting as members discussed the covenant draft. Referring to the draft’s first paragraph, which calls on the two parties to build a relationship of trust in the denomination, Steve Grace of Midland, Mich., asked, “How are you intending to do that?”

In the 1999 Biennial in San Diego, it was PHEWA’s display of the Shower of Stoles that once again put us in the spotlight and drew a vitriolic attack from the Layman.[iii]

That would be the last public venting related to PHEWA and the lgbtq inclusion struggle. Our insider/outsider reality always carried its inherent tensions. Yet we had our role, ouyr place, and our story belongs there along with Presbyterians for Lesbian and Gay Concerns, the More Light Church movement (later to merge), That All May Freely Serve (formed in response to the blocking of Janie’s call to ministry in Rochester)  and finally the Covenant Network who with the diligent organizing skills of Tricia Dykers Koenjg brought the liberal tall steeples into the political struggle.

In my 15 minute interview regarding the future, I pointed out how white the gathering was, a reality that has to be confronted moving forward. Now that inclusion so no longer the defining fault line between liberal and conservative churches, the issues of race and class will now have to be faced. (Thankfully thanks to those like Janie and Lisa, there has always been at least a voice, even if crying from the wilderness, seeing the connection in these issues.

Then there is this…yes, our polity has now been changed. But there can be no reconciliation without a process of amends. Around the circle were those who lived it out in the PCUSA out of devotion and love, their gracious gift to us. But there were also those whose pain led them to leave the PCUSA. To the Unitarians or Metropolitan Community Churches or United Churches of Christ. No one has to accept abuse forever. And others left the church entirely. How many cumulative years of ministry were stolen, that can never be given back? How do you repair broken hearts, wounded spirits? What kind of overture would open that conversation? What would Howard do?

Many thanks to Ray Bagnuolo

Ray makes a point

and TAMFS for pulling this all together and to Rick and Kitty Ufford-Chase and Stony Point for hosting.

Kitty and Rick Ufford-Chase

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PHEWA Joins Front Lines in Struggle for Gay & Lesbian Ordination

-- Jerry L. Van Marter, *News*, Presbyterian Church

(U.S.A.), News Briefs - 9307, February 12, 1993.

Albuquerque, NM. -- With virtually no one in opposition, members

of the Presbyterian Health, Education and Welfare Association

(PHEWA) voted Feb. 6 to join the front lines in the battle for

ordination rights for gay and lesbian Presbyterians.

In giving near unanimous approval (less than 10 of the 500

persons voting abstained) to four resolutions related to the

prolonged struggle for gay and lesbian ordination in the

Presbyterian Church, the association brushed aside concerns that

taking such actions might jeopardize the association's structural

relationship with its parent Social Justice and Peacemaking

Ministry Unit (SJP).

A memo of understanding between the two groups gives the

association the right to "responsible dissent" while working

within the framework of General Assembly policy.  The executive

director of the association is an employee of the General

Assembly.  The association receives about $80,000 from the

ministry unit's budget.

Under an agreement worked out between the association's board of

directors and SJP officials, no money from the unit or staff

time by PHEWA executive director the Rev. Mark Wendorf will be

committed to the association's effort to change the

denomination's ordination policy.

The actions taken by the association included:

* Adoption of a "Statement of Inclusion" (see below);

* Adoption of a statement that reads: "We celebrate the gifts of

lesbian, bisexual and gay persons and support their ordination

rights";

*Endorsement of a "Declaration of Conscience," a statement that

has been circulating widely in the Presbyterian Church protesting

the General Assembly Permanent Judicial Commission's decisions

setting aside the call of the Rev. Jane Spahr, an avowed lesbian,

to Downtown Presbyterian Church in Rochester, N.Y., and revoking

the certification of avowed lesbian Lisa Larges by Twin Cities

Area Presbytery as ready to receive a call;

* Adoption of a statement condemning homophobia and calling for

the church to be inclusive of gay men, bisexuals, and lesbians.

Prior to the vote on the resolutions, former PHEWA interim

executive director the Rev. John Scotland sketched the history of

the relationship between PHEWA and the denomination and outlined

the dangers of taking actions that run counter to current General

Assembly policy.  "There are those in the church who are waiting

for us to make a mistake.  If we choose to give up our life on

this, let's know it going in."

During floor debate, Spahr, director of a ministry with gay and

lesbian persons and their families in San Rafael, Calif., rose

and said, "The cost to PHEWA may be money, but the cost to gay

and lesbian people is death."

Laurene LaFontaine of Denver, Colo., added, "If we kow-tow on

this issue, then our commitment to justice is empty.  If we act

out of fear, then we are standing on sand; if we stand on the

rock of justice, God will take care of us."

In a related action, the association approved a resolution urging

the overturning of Amendment 2 in Colorado, a measure passed by

voters in that state Nov. 3 prohibiting the extension of civil

rights to gay and lesbian persons.  The association also asked

its board of directors to monitor the introduction of similar

legislation in other states and to alert synods and presbyteries

in those states where such legislation is introduced.

The group also approved a resolution supporting President

Clinton's decision to end the ban on gay and lesbian persons in

the military. -- Jerry L. Van Marter, *News*, Presbyterian Church

(U.S.A.), News Briefs - 9307, February 12, 1993.

PHEWA Statement of Inclusion

(adopted Feb. 6, 1993)

In an era when the world is bent on warring factions,

seeking 'ethnic cleansing',

fueled by segregation and divisiveness,

built upon casting out the different,

and working for disharmony;

In an age when the church is caught up in the evil and sin of

persecution, unrighteous name calling, trial and judgment, and

sectarian division;

The Presbyterian Health, Education and Welfare Association

of the Presbyterian Church (U.S.A.),

led by the Holy Spirit,

and informed by the ministry of Jesus the Christ,

proclaims itself to be an inclusive community,

accepting those who are cast out by society,

welcoming those who are dispossessed,

and including those who are oppressed.

PHEWA tries to be a community where

people are accepted for who they are,

free under the grace and salvation of God,

free from persecution and attack,

free from fear of reprisal,

and protected by the mercy of Christ.

PHEWA will continue to be a community of diverse opinions,

where different ideas may be proclaimed without fear of attack,

where honest discussion overcomes angry rhetoric,

where diversity is proclaimed over segregation,

acceptance over judgment.

PHEWA will continue to proclaim the message of justice and mercy,

crying out for those with no voice,

joining with those who are seeking a voice within the church,

serving sisters and brothers in the ministries of health,

education and welfare.

Entering the PHEWA community, individuals and networks

agree to abide by these gospel standards,

accepting each other in love,

disagreeing with mercy, uniting for justice,

and serving with compassion.

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[ii] 19-Jan-95

95011   PHEWA AWARD WINNER CASTIGATES CHURCH, GOVERNMENT

                     by Jerry L. Van Marter

Editor's note:  This story contains some language that may be

offensive to some. -- Jerry L. Van Marter

NEW ORLEANS--Ravaged by the AIDS virus that one day soon will kill

him, the Rev. Matt English seized the last opportunity he will

probably have to speak publicly to lash out at those in the

Presbyterian Church and society he said have made him feel like he

"has been tossed in the trash and discarded like a leper."

     Barely able to walk or catch his breath, English spoke to the

Presbyterian Health, Education and Welfare Association (PHEWA) Jan.

14 during its 1995 biennial conference after receiving its 1995

John Park Lee Award for outstanding social welfare ministry.  He

was honored for his work as executive director of North Dallas

Shared Ministries, an ecumenical social service agency supported

by 41 congregations in that city.

      After struggling to the podium to accept his award, English

drew guffaws when he wise-cracked, "You have just witnessed

`creeping socialism.'"

     There was little laughter after that.  In his acceptance

speech, English excoriated "fascists and fundamentalists in the

Presbyterian Church who believe only they know who belongs. ...

They want to exclude, but according to Jesus, as soon as they

exclude, they are out and everyone else is in -- the God of

exclusion is not the God we know in Jesus."

     He then criticized groups such as Presbyterians for Biblical

Sexuality, describing them as "penis-pushers who would stick a

penis on God so they can protect male dominance of the church and

society."

     English questioned whether such groups have read the Bible. 

"Do they want a biblical sexuality in which polygamy is the norm,

not to mention harems and concubines and temple prostitutes?  Do

they want a biblical sexuality in which rape and incest are

commonplace and accepted behavior?  Do they want a biblical

sexuality in which Paul frowns on marriage?  I don't think they've

read the Bible at all," he thundered.

     English leveled some of his bitterest criticism at the Board

of Pensions.  "I've worked all my career to feed the hungry and now

I'm being starved by the Board of Pensions," he complained. 

English said that after he was forced onto disability by his

illness, his income declined by 75 percent.  He lost his house and

car and now moves from friend's house to friend's house in

California.

     Board of Pensions representatives who were in attendance at

the PHEWA conference said English's income could only have dropped

so precipitously if he had opted out of Social Security (a choice

given to ministers on the grounds of sepAration of church and

state).  Pension and disability benefits are calculated on the

presumption of participation in Social Security.

     In a subsequent interview with the Presbyterian News Service,

Board of Pensions president John Detterick confirmed that the Board

had paid the maximum benefit allowed to English "given the

circumstances of his participation in the plan."  He added that the

details of each plan member's participation in the pension and

health plan is confidential information.

     Nevertheless, Board of Pensions staff member the Rev. Jack

McAnlis told the PHEWA gathering, "the church should find ways to

insure that no one falls through the cracks the way Matt has."

     English also claimed that Dallas-based Grace Presbytery has

neglected him.  "It feels like the Presbyterian Church has tossed

me in the trash, discarded me like a leper."

     But Christa Dixon, a member of Grace Presbytery, said that

English's AIDS-induced memory loss caused him to forget assistance

the presbytery has tried to provide.  She said the presbytery has

also had great difficulty locating English since he moved from

Dallas to northern California last summer.

     English said he left Dallas after losing his house "because

the Presbyterian mayor made destitution a crime in order to get the

homeless people off the streets before the World Cup soccer matches

arrived."  He also criticized government policies he charged make

medicine and nutritional supplements for AIDS sufferers either

impossible to attain or prohibitively expensive.

     "It's funny, though," English continued, "I find that while

the church has screwed me, God is good to me and I find Jesus all

the time in strangers."

     English also praised PHEWA.  "You keep me going from day to

day and I want to encourage you to keep on because out there on the

margins, among the marginalized, is where God's commonwealth in

Jesus is being created."

     He concluded by dedicating his award "to all the marginal

people of the world."

     A spontaneous offering -- bread baskets passed around the

luncheon tables -- collected $1,000 and was given to English.

                  Another Award Winner Responds

     Later in the day, at the PHEWA business meeting, the

association was praised by the Rev. David Cockroft for giving

English a time and place to speak.

     "PHEWA was at its finest as it presented the John Park Lee

Award to the Rev. Matt English at lunchtime today," said Cockroft,

pastor emeritus at Riverdale Presbyterian Church in the Bronx, N.Y. 

He made his remarks after receiving PHEWA's Rodney T. Martin Award

for sustained service to the organization.

     "This is one of the few places in this church," Cockroft said,

"where someone who is dying, someone who is angry -- an anger which

is not pleasant even without the language, which might have

offended some people -- can have a place."

     Cockroft, who said he "junked" his previously prepared

acceptance speech after hearing English, continued, "Sometimes

things cannot be done `decently and in order,' but who knows where

the Spirit is at work?  Maybe we saw the face of Christ today.  I

don't know.  All I know is that this beloved church of ours needs

to be shaken up.  We need to get beyond the petty squabbles that

seem to consume so much of our energy.  We need to learn, without

glossing over or covering up anything, how to live together." 

            One PHEWA Network Responds with Statement

     Also at the business meeting, Community Ministries and

Neighborhood Organizations (COMANO), the PHEWA-related network with

which English is affiliated, issued a statement intended primarily

for the press.  Read into the record by the Rev. Robert Brashear

of Pittsburgh, it said:

     "Everything we do we do out of the daily living out of our

ministries, ministries to which we have been called by God,

ministries for which we offer no apology.

     "Know that although only one of our networking groups bears

the name `community ministries,' each and every one of our networks

is a community ministry.  And we, together, constitute a community.

     "Know that if some of us are concerned about mental illness,

it is because there are those in our midst who wrestle daily with

those demons and we are called for Jesus' sake to wrestle with

them.

     "Know that if some of us are concerned about alcohol and other

drug abuse it is because there are those in our midst who wrestle

daily with those demons and we are called for Jesus' sake to

wrestle with them.

     "Know that if there are those among us who are concerned about

disabilities, it is because there are those in our midst who

struggle daily with barriers, some physical and others only in the

human heart, and we are called for Jesus' sake to struggle with

them.

     "And know that if there are those among us who are concerned

about AIDS, it is not because of any agenda to ordain anyone, but

because there are those in our midst who live and die daily with

AIDS -- gay and straight, male and female, adult and child.  And

we are called for Jesus' sake to live and die with them.

     "And know that if there are any of our elected officers who

are gay and lesbian, it is not because of any issue that we went

looking for them but because they were already here, in our midst,

endowed by God with ministries that we cannot give up or refuse to

recognize.

     "So when you write about us, we call upon you to understand

what it means to live and speak within community, and if you cannot

understand, then, for Jesus' sake, respect the integrity of our

community and the dignity of each and every member of our

community.

     "For we are not here because of issues, nor are we here to

argue about doctrine or theology, as much as they undergird all

that we do.  

     "But we are here to encourage and expand the living out of our

ministries -- literally ministries of life and death, whether that

death be the subtle death of exclusion by community or church, or

whether that death be the literal slow agonizing living death of

AIDS, or the sudden death of children shot dead on our doorsteps.

     "And so, for Jesus' sake, we invite you, we call on you and

those you report to, to join with us in these ministries, either

through your direct participation or through prayers of solidarity.

     "And if you do not so choose, then, for Jesus' sake, remain

silent and harass not.  Is it a witness to us Presbyterians that

a secular blues bar here in New Orleans has as its slogan: `Heal

Ever, Hurt Never'?"

                       A Note About PHEWA

     PHEWA is a voluntary membership organization of Presbyterians

dedicated to the social welfare and justice ministries of the

church.  It is related to the National Ministries Division of the

General Assembly Council and is organized into 10 networks that

focus on particular types of social ministry.

     The 10 PHEWA networks are Community Ministries and

Neighborhood Organizations (COMANO); Presbyterian AIDS Network

(PAN); Presbyterians Reaffirming Reproductive Options (PARO);

Presbyterian Association of Specialized Pastoral Ministries

(PASPM); Presbyterian Child Advocacy Network (PCAN); Presbyterians

for Disabilities Concerns (PDC); Presbyterian Health Network (PHN);

Presbyterian Network on Alcohol and Other Drug Abuse (PNAODA);

Presbyterian Mental Illness Network (PMIN); and Urban Presbyterian

Pastors Association (UPPA).